Why haze?

Is 7.21 pm here and i am at home already.. have terrible haze today in Kuala Lumpur.. Cause Indonesia usual jungle fire cause it. (silly) i feel so dizzy so took off and went back home and rest... Reached home .. as usual still switch on the pc. Here i am stuck in front of  pc again... sigh...

What have i done this few days...? hmmm... i just felt upset today cause someone just piss me off just now  when  i log in to MSN today... My online mummy was online too.. She sound weird.. later only i found out why she sound so weird and strange .. sigh.. i talk about want to get another tattoo like "anubis" .. she said she got another friend who is tattoo artist maybe can help me. so 3 of us went to group conversation. he just piss me off and i said " F #$% U !" There i am ... i got pissed easily nowdays.. i ask where should i place my new tattoo? he said forehead... i mean if a gal tattoo an anubis on her forehead? how she going out? i mean i just asked in courteous way... but why he has to be so mean? .. i wonder why.. those who knew me online said i change so much.. who i become nowdays? what i turn into? a devil ? a selfish gal? or proud? or lack of self confidence? i don't know.. all i know ... i want to thin down no matter what... (sound pathetic right? u have no idea how fat i am now)

Most of the european said i look fine and curvy nice in every part? Do u know i am living in a place that call ASIA that all the gals here are thin and small and short ? HELL!! I AM LIKE OBESE BESIDE THEM!

bodphrah never chat with me for 2 days now.. i wonder what really happened to him.. i am really concern about what happened to him.. no matter what, he is still my friend after all... he has his own problem and so do i.. we just need friend who can listen and be beside u no matter what happened.. i hope u read this... he sound so down a day before.. just make my heart so pain when he did this...

The reason i come back early cause i dying my sis's hair too cause she need to redo a new color for her coming birthday... she is born on 14th aug i was 13th aug.. both leo ... we are so close to each other cause we know each other well.. I have a big family with 6 sis and 2 bro.. i am the youngest among all... i got doted that is no doubt ... But makes my life coward i guess.. i used to like hide away the fact... hide from the reality .. but NO MORE i said... i want to be more stronger..

I feel so dizzy now... my sis already came home.. so i guess i will continue after i do her hair color finish... take care